Showgirl Wishlist

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I've said it before and I'll say it again, stripper heels are the most comfortable heels you'll ever wear. The skintight plastic means they never rub or give you blisters, and the plush cushioned soles make it possible to dance and run around in them all night. The pair I usually wear are only 4" with no platform, from the Pleaser bikini-fitness range (a great option for tall girls, or dealing with low ceilings). However, now that I have some auditions coming up and will be performing in different venues, doing different shows, I want to get a more theatrical pair just for stage performances. I have my heart set on these rose-bud beauties. I want to frolic like a woodland Barbie.  

I also want to get myself feeling fierce for September and book in for rose quartz or amethyst acrylic nails. Crystal and marble effect nails are my new favourite thing, check them out on Pinterest if you don't know what I'm talking about. I was going to get eyelash extensions too but seeing as I sleep on my front, I think I'll stick to falsies. A new Pacifica perfume would be great too, and some Urban Decay Setting Spray. In an ideal world I'd be filling my closet with fantastical outfits from Love Child Boudoir, like the gorgeous flowery harness top above. I'm also going to re-read my copy of Striptastic by Jacq The Stripper, which the utter babe sent me a while back! I insist you check it out, it's red-hot, scorching genius from a fellow ripper babe. All of this stuff will be thrown into a new weekender. Hopefully a cute eggshell one from Victoria's Secret PINK.

Unblocking My Creativity

My creativity ebbs and flows. It dips and rises in sync with the seasons of my life. When I feel like I am being pushed forward relentlessly, my urge to make things simply disappears. I cannot find the energy to reflect when I am focused on living, on finding my way out, or through. I'm not talking about periods of depression; I'm talking about the outward-facing or exhausted dark times of the soul. Times when maybe some part of you is being forged, and you cannot stop to describe it. The days (weeks, months...) afterward can be even worse for my productivity. Numb and quiet days spent staring at my phone, or consuming art instead of making it. Although I should be used to them, times without creativity still scare me. That never goes away. It always feels as if they will never end. Is that it, I ask myself? Will my ability to bring new ideas into the world just run out some day? Has it run out already? Am I going to feel bored forever, unable to shift? You never get used to it. It is hard to have faith.

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Everyone is different, but here are some things that help me when I get stuck like this. Re-reading the chapter on creativity in Women Who Run With The Wolves. Designing a playlist of brand new music for inspiration. Remembering that this has happened before, and will happen again. Plenty of time spent alone, drinking coffee. Forcing myself to move, as difficult and unnatural as it feels, pick up my camera, my notebook, my laptop, whatever, and make something. Asking myself as gently as possible to remember and to recreate the parts that hurt. Come to terms with the fact that whatever you make will be shit. The finished result is not the point - the point is to unblock yourself. I am clearing out my creative drain. I don't need to have something for Instagram at the end of it. It doesn't have to feel good.

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Limiting my time on social media also really helps me. The other day I went out and bought a pin-board, and some cute rose gold pins from Paperchase. It just felt like something I wanted to do, and I'm glad I did. It's provided a physical space where I can work on visual ideas quickly with my hands, without picking up my phone and falling into a vortex. I haven't added a page to my kink scrapbook in a long time, even though I have more than enough raw material to draw from. I'm planning to make a series of works inspired by my last stint as a stripper, and for that, I know I will need all my skills warmed-up and ready to go. I also want to do a few pages on magic and witchcraft. The pin-board is practice space, an experimentation and reminder. I'm taking more pictures, writing more posts, and I have a clear vision of my autumn content. Bringing it all into the world has already begun, but for me creativity is a wave that I have to ride, as I wait patiently for it to reach its peak. I have a tendency to burn myself out faster than I need to, and speed up the repetition of the cycle. As I grow older, I want to learn to accept the waves however they crash, and learn to harness them better when they come. For they will come.

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How To Have A Good Skin Day

I first heard about Tropic skincare from my mum; she brought me home a Super Greens Serum from London to try out; it immediately worked well with my clogged-pore prone, combination skin. Using three drops before bed, when my face is still wet with toner, has given me noticeable results and much more confidence in my skin. It made my face feel plumper, brighter, and "fed" by the morning. That was a few months ago now, and through Super Greens, I've become a raving fan of the brand. Adding Good Skin Day Resurfacing Serum to my night-time ritual has only made things even better. It's another serum, designed to be used 3-4 times a week; I alternate these two products each night, so that my skin gets a balance of nutrients. After a night using Good Skin Day, my skin feels balanced, more youthful, almost a bit... airbrushed? It's hard to describe, but I'll go into more detail about how the product actually works to give you a better idea.

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Good Skin Day is a resurfacing product. It contains willow bark BHA, which exfoliates your skin, leaving it smoother and softer, and AHA fruit enzymes. It's also packed with glycolic and hyaloronic acids, both amazing for fighting red marks from past blemishes. On your fingers, it feels really light and thin, drying quickly on the face and leaving you with that ultra-clean, tingly feeling as it refines the top layer of your skin. I'm obsessed with the sweet, sugary papaya scent; it's not overwhelming at all and I honestly look forward to putting it on at night. 

In the last month of using it I've probably had one, maybe two spots, and those were hormonal ones arriving like clockwork just before my period. A vast improvement from before I started using this serum. My pores and skin texture are noticeably refined; my makeup goes on smoother, and I use a very light layer of foundation now, if any. I feel like my face is a lot calmer, more even, and just generally less troubled. Tropic products can be quite pricey (Good Skin Day retails at £42, which isn't too bad for something all-natural, vegan, cruelty-free, and effective) but they do last a very long time. Because you only use a few drops, serums last me literally months. I've hardly made a dent in mine even though I've been using them consistently.

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If you have similar skin to me, with a multitude of small, mild issues, then I really recommend this. It will be especially good for those in their twenties, who may be fighting blemishes, fine lines, clogged pores and redness all at the same time. If you don't quite know what is up with your skin or how it could be better, but you just know it could be, that's exactly where I was at too, and I feel like I've made huge improvements recently. Where are you guys at on your skincare journey?

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